I am starting this year, both terrified and excited.
Change is never easy, even when you know it is where you have to go. I have worked very hard to move forward, and yet as I stand on the precipice, I am so terrified I want to cry.
- No one tells you that when you grow, there is pain that comes with the change.
- No one tells you that as you look forward, the comfort of everything in the past becomes stronger.
- No one tells you that change is the scariest thing because it is a complete act of faith with no guarantee.
Change is risking it all for the idea that there is something better or that you will end up a better version of yourself. However, at the same time, it is the most out-of-control feeling that exists. I know as I grow and transform that things will get better because I will be better.
I have to remind myself that life is not a storybook plot with a final climax, where you have reached a pinnacle and have nowhere else to go. Life is an ever-evolving journey, and there is always something around the corner. Even when it is not a great something, you have a chance to build yourself up again.
I am not sure what 2020 is going to bring, but I have to trust that I have the emotional, spiritual, and mental strength to face it. I also have to remember that I am truly blessed for the amazing support system I have in my life – which includes both friends and family.
So whatever 2020 brings you, I hope you trust your heart to guide you.